The starting

This is the photograph of a person , unknown to me when i was a kid .Reminiscence as it catches me, once , when i was small , my parents were into some sort of hindu ritual, in which married couple go round around a fire lit , 7 times , again. In complete despair i asked my grandma- "where i'd live when they get married!" . She , at once bursted into laughter , along with the priest and my parents. When that ceremony was over i heard something like 'gurudev' . I thought i overheard from some last chanting , the priest was performing. I realized in an instant it wasn't! . Today i get it! 'twas Jai Guru Dev! , This pic is the one I first cited in my mum's 'An intimate note to the sincere seeker', Volume no. of which has faded. I did Art Excel when i was in 4th grade. Bad on my part i don't remember guru ma's name with which i had an awesome time playing games(that was all i could think of then!). Yeah i regularly did Kriya for some time , then didn't.., But meanwhile i enjoyed going to my pa's friend's house for Satsang every sunday evening , where i figured out i could sing pretty well. After that knowledge i had a routine of learning a new bhajan every week and sing it with all those melodious instruments around. Same time around , during winters , we went Rishikesh from Solan , backing up Guruji's scorpio. Having had his blessings in person(cuz even without him being in person , his presence is all around us , every jgd knows that!), me and my sis sighted guru ma and shocked her up in surprise to tough her feet with hand's crossed( as we were taught) , when she smiled all we could do was grin , and nod in yes to all the thing's she'd ask ; till our parents came to wish her. I 'm still able to 'see' that crowd , all smiling faces, listening to Guruji with 100% nods on his asking them-" are u all with me , listening to me?" and then continuing along with time. After 2 yrs i stopped doing kriya , cuz of no apt influence in home , Pa did his sudarshan kriya , when? even ma couldn't tell ,but he did. Ma did regularly in the evening , but all that she kept complaining about, i didn't see any improvement in her, till i got, it was it which kept her loving everybody, still she restricts and grudges about many things , but her love for others , her deeds overpasses all. Here, right now , m listening to frederic buchet , thanking guruji for bringing that Jgd presence in every nook and corner of my house , my home again...m not grateful , cuz sri sri says if u r grateful u don't belong to me, i thank him superficially , i love him by heart..